I am a 40 year old white conservative Christian male who lives in a very small town in rural Tennessee. Fifteen years ago I felt that God had called me to spread his word. Since my calling to preach I have got divorced, and raised two kids on my own for the better part of 10 years. Around four years ago, I met the woman who would become my wife. I became I stepfather to a wonderfully wild young man, and we added two more sons to our family. To the blind eye you would believe that I would be a poster child for what a Donald Trump supporter would look like. However, I could never support the man.

Since early 2016 I have had my doubts about Donald Trump. I saw in an interview where he claimed that he never asked God for forgiveness on anything. If you know anything about Christianity, you know that forgiveness from God is usually the first thing that is taught. I felt that most other believers would come to the same conclusion that I did, that he was a fraud that only used our faith to garner votes. Sadly I did not realize how wrong I would be. I was amazed how much love this man received by many of the people that I have loved and admired my entire life. Even after all of the lies, adulterous affairs, alleged sexual misconduct, making fun of the handicapped, and all the other things this man has done to basically spit in the face of the faith I hold so dear, it seemed that more and more Christians began to follow him.

Since he took office in January 2017, it it seems as if it has evolved into full blown worship of Donald Trump, especially during the 2020 election. I saw men and women who would typically use their voices for good or post scripture on Facebook to lift up people suddenly become political experts who would take every opportunity they had to slam anyone who did not agree with them. Preachers who never spoke about politics before now began to preach to their congregation on the greatness of Donald Trump. It was as if they had changed who they were worshiping in the blink of an eye.  These same men and women  told me to love everyone no matter that use hateful and other derogatory types of speech against people of other races, nationalities, and beliefs, not to mention the hate that has been spread against the LGBTQ community for decades.

With all of that being said I was asked how I felt about other Christians and the way that they seem to worship this man. The only word I have been able to come up with is sadness. At first there was anger and frustration. I was angry because people kept following him and I was frustrated because it seems so obvious to me, and I could not understand how other believers could not see it. Over the past month it has become sadness because it seems that so many Christians have lost their way. They have become selfish and have forgotten that we are supposed to spread love to everyone, and not just to the ones of our faith. The only time that I feel anger or frustration is anger and frustration with myself. The few times I did try to preach it always came up where I would tell the congregation to stand up for what you feel is right, and I have failed miserably at that. When asked my opinions I would usually just shrug my shoulders and respond with I don’t know all the while I knew I should step up and take a stand against someone who I considered a real danger to our nation.

On the bright side in less than two months we will have a new president in office. Hopefully it will be the beginning have a wonderful time in our country. More and more Christians seem to be leaving the Church of Trump and coming back to God. My prayer is that when they do they remember the true teachings of Jesus and began to share the love all over the world, not just with the people in their own congregation.